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I'm single.
Maybe that's just who I am.
And you know what? I like being single.
Being single's the best.
Yeah, stay out as late as you want.
Answer to no one.
The whole world full of endless possibilities.
Never having to go to a farmer's market.

Okay. Ah... doing some math here.
Table six has got three bridesmaids: an eight, an eight, and a seven.
I am willing to give you one of the eights, lowering myself to a 15,
which means you owe me...

Ted Mosby and Barney Stinson
How I Met Your Mother S01E12 The Wedding


Okay, yes, it's a mistake. I know it's a mistake.
But there are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it's a mistake is to make the mistake, and look back, and say, "Yep. That was a mistake."
So, really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake, because then you go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not.

Lily Aldrin
How I Met Your Mother S01E21 - Milk

I used to wait patiently at my PC, waited for you to online on FB and silently bid 'take care Bubu' every single working morning at 8.00 a.m. I just want to make sure that you reached your office safe and sound. Now you are not even on my friend list. I do what I had to do. I miss us.

Soy Un Perdedor

I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me.

I haven't been updating my blog for a while. No entry at all for July. It was a hectic month and a sad one as well, so I better keep it to myself that than whining it up here.

I'm now back in Penang for my last year of degree. Back to basic, back to the old college, climbing up and down the hills just to get to the class. No complain though as Penang is much better than UUM, travel wise an yeah, it is much closer to my home.

So back to the title, loser eh? It is not the first time I feel this but it has been stronger for the past few weeks. It all started when we had a dinner in our lecturer's house, like a homecoming dinner for us after spending 2 years in UUM. So she wanted to know our updates, what we are up to and the favorite question, single or in relationship. so we take turns to tell our updates where I realized most of my classmate has found their love when we were in UUM. And when it comes to me, well my answer will be 'still single and looking for trouble'. It was a pretty sad thing to tell to be honest.

I predicted earlier on that, when I come back to Penang, I will start looking for love, like I used to. But after a month here I realized, I don't have the urge to do that anymore.  And when I see some of my friends already going out with someone here, I feel like a loser. But the truth is I don't go for it like them. I really feel like now I don't have to have someone special yet. Why? Because it is not necessary and I have to admit here, I'm a commitment freak. I can't be in a relationship for now. I am definitely not ready for it. Financial wise, period.


And yes, after you have to stop loving someone you love the most, you definitely don't feel like taking another chance with others right? Not now.

Your Call

I'm waiting for your call.

Like the lovely song above, I'm dying to listen to her voice. It's been awhile since the last time we speak. I've been going through some very depressing situation and everything I do is for her. There is no more 'we', only 'I' and 'she' and I want the best for her, even it means I'm the one having to deal with 40 kinds of sadness.

Everything I see reminds me of her, such a cliche. Hehe. The white car, the songs, the cupcakes, the bangles, YM, Skype and every single detail that make my head spins. I think it is pretty normal for a guy to suffer after a break up. Relationship hangover.

I thought I gonna handle this well. Well, I'm proven wrong. No such thing as easy break-ups. Even though I know it will come and I prepared myself, the outcome is still pretty much the same. I'm devastated, suffering from a severe 'I-Miss-You-Come-Back-To-Me-Please' syndrome. I have to find a cure.

 Don't call me, I will be fine. Time will tell.

What I Miss About Us

Good things never last, at least for me.

The good part of it is I foresee it so I was prepared for this moment.

A month of awesomeness, only a month but I enjoy the moments to the fullest, I seized the day, seized the chance with both hands and never regret it.

Some of the things I miss about us: 

·         I woke you up every single working day exactly at 6.15 am. Sometimes you wake up earlier but sometimes my calls fail to wake you up and you end up late going out to work. Get a really loud alarm clock after this okay.

·         Our first date. It was so hard to say goodbye and let you go.

·         Every time I uttered my cliché sentences, you will say that I bluff. But I know, you were swayed by my cliché.

·         To discover that your feeling for me is genuine and it was you who started to acknowledge it first.

·         Your driving skills. What on earth a KL driver asks me for directions every time you were uncertain about where to go, most of the time. I would love to be your co-pilot again though. A certain joy ride.

·         The way you look at me. It’s haunting. I swear I never felt that way before. My hair tingles.

·         The way I carried myself in this relationship. I feel I did well, I certainly became a real me in this relationship, way better than I was in two previous relationships. The secret is you. Your maturity allow me to become a real me, sometimes too childish and acts like a child and sometimes take a lead. We compliment each other well.

·         I love when I hear or see you giggle. It spurred me to crack more jokes, just to see you laugh and happy.

·         Our weekend. You are the reason I went to my moral class without night sleep. You are also the reason I always pumped up and all smile during that class on Sunday.

·         How anxious I was every night to wait 12 o’clock so I can call you, have a nice chit-chat and bid you goodnight. Trust me I never feel so anxious to wait for midnight and 6.15 am and I will never will after this.

·         We are perfect for each other, but the time and the situation is never on our side.

Sorry guys, another 'jiwang' entry. Will be back to the usual me, don't worry.

How to Ruin Your Girl's Day 101

#32 - Send a weirdly pose picture of yourself early in the day.

#45 - Ask her to turn off the radio while she is driving to work in the morning and ask her to put her phone on loudspeaker. You definitely can do better in babbling and singing off-tune songs than hitz.fm announcers and their songs selection. Heck you can try pulling a prank on her while she is stuck in the traffic jam.

#12 -  Call her at the exact same time every single day. Make it a routine and one day, try call her let say 5 minutes early from the usual time and say 'I can't wait 5 more minutes to hear your angelic voice'.

#87 - Tell her you barely miss her. You only miss her smile, her smell, her touch, her hair, her voice, her giggle, her glare and that's all, nothing much.

#61 - Call her in the middle of the night while she is sleeping and say ' I wanted to hear your voice while you are asleep, sweet as always though, get back to sleep then, I'm missing you a little bit here'.

#55 - Wake her up every single day without miss. Listening to your voice is enough to ruin her day!

More to come.

Old Story New Movie

The other day, my best buddy and I were having a conversation when she suddenly pop up a question

 'bila cerita Lagenda Budak Setan keluar ek?'. And then for next 30 minutes we spent the time discussing and reminiscing the story that we both read at our early ages, and weep like there is no tomorrow

I'm one of few guys who reads Malay novels. Well blame my 3 sisters, after I finished school they pass me their collection of Malay novel and their only brother has turn on the sensitive side of him for far too much.

Anyway, I believe many of you guys out there read this novel also right? And in awe of how great their love is. We have our own portrayal of the story and now the long awaited movie will finally grace the silver screen. I am not expecting fireworks here but hey, I would love to see this movie in the cinema. I might bring my 3 sisters along, well along with their children and weep together. He he.

So enjoy the trailer. Woo Lisa Surihani just stole my heart once again. Lucky Farid Kamil, always got the chance to hug her. I'm jealous.

Raja Drama

I haven't been writing much lately.

Well you can blame on my hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia.

Anyway, in the mean time, as you guys already know, I spend most of my time in front of my PC. I'm hooked with TV series! Sorry great box office movies, now I feel staring at the monitor for 1 1/2 hours is torturous

and excruciating. 20 minutes or 40 minutes for an episode of TV series suits me well. 

My obsession towards How I Met Your Mother is very well known and documented, well you can check here and here. I go 'ohhh' and 'wahh' everytime Dr. Gregory House and his team solve their patients' disease riddle, so yeah, I'm an avid follower of House  as well, now in season 6, I'm craving for the latest episode. I do enjoy Flashforward as well, a show of sci-fi and thriller put together, kind of similar to LOST but heck, this one is compelling enough for me to wait for every new episode. CSI series never failed to amuse me, I think every single episodes is fascinating for me, but I prefer the original CSI with Grissom and CSI:NY than CSI:Miami. But still if playing in AXN, I will still hooked and one thing about CSI, I just can't take my eyes from the screen and from the subtitle. Or else I will lost. So if suddenly I reply a message saying 'I'm off to bed' at 11.30 p.m, I might just say it to focus on the show. And the latest series that gets everyone buzzing and humming is Glee. By now, all gleeks is waiting for the second half of the first season and we can't wait for April 13th to come. After every episode I watch, I will surely open my 'Karaoke' folder and sing. This show just make you wanna sing! 

 One thing I still couldn't chew, what the heck with their TV programme schedule? Why a series supposedly slotted on Mondays 2000 ET/PT (HIMYM) got no new series for a fortnight?? Why a series has a mid season hiatus? And why take a break for winter olympic? Well, we definitely don't know how their TV works aren't we? We just wait haplessly in this part of the world waiting for a new episode. Yeah, I'm a drama king.

 Look closely, I even installed a 2nd clock, US time.

 My watch list. You can do the same at www.tv.com

Cik Aness, jom duet lagu neh. Ahaks

Terpsichore

I'm taking a series of rhythmical steps of life.

Well, my year doesn't started well, but things started to improve. I'm glad.

I did mention about submitting a resume to NST for their U-Phoria, right? Check this entry.

I waited for quite some times before I submitted my first article. Maybe my life was kinda messy at that time I don't really know what to do. But after I submitted my first article, which is previously published in this blog and also one of my favorite, Swing Swing, and straight away being uploaded to the web portal and Facebook page, I was so pumped up. This is what I always wanted to do. This is an opening I wanted. And I will take this chance and try to shine on, kick start my dream, not to be wipe away by my my noble future career. 

 I'm one of them. How cool! Click to enlarge and please spot me.

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My Articles So Far

Life's A Swing

Goal and Green Campaign 
How I Met Your Mother

Save Me

Ah I know, my PC is just beautiful.