Well well well, hello and hi to everybody. I have not written for quite a long time, maybe because I was very busy with assignments, quizzes, projects, girls…. Aha, the last one is up for argument. Hehe. Anyway, on top of this page you can see the title and yes, it is about her, again. Don’t worry; there is a little ‘X’ button on the top right corner of this page and you can roll over your cursor, and click and this page will disappear in no time. But if you want to know what is going on with me, you can read this entry until the end and please leave your comment after that.
What an introduction! Okay, moving on to the story. Well, by the start of the year, I was already thinking about her birthday in April, 13th April to be precise. When April arrived, I can’t stop thinking about her birthday. Last year, I managed to wish her ‘Happy Birthday’ via a phone call after trying for quite some times. How about this year? Shall I call her to wish her ‘Happy Birthday’ again? Yup, that was what I planned to do. But unfortunately, to may dismay, she has changed her number for GOD knows how many time already and there is no way I can contact her. So what did I do? I asked my friend in Jakarta, Marini (Thanks for you support, Mar) to forward me her friend’s number who happen to study in the same university with Intan. I messaged him and asked him to do me a favour. He replied, and sent me Intan’s phone number, but he stated that Intan knew that he was trying to get her number for someone and she was clearly unhappy. I bet she might be unhappy to know that I was the one who wanted her number badly. Anyway, thank you so much Mr.Fariz. Sadly, the number that he gave me is Intan’s old number, so it’s not helping. Anyway, thanks for your help pal, appreciate it.
I was not giving up. Next I turn to students’ most visit webpage in Internet, Friendster. I managed to find their batch’s group and open some of her friends’ page. There are about 40 of them. To my surprise, there is one girl, who is her course mate is in relationship with my old schoolmate. So I contacted my friend, to ask her girl about Intan’s phone number. Within a day, he sent me her phone number. Her birthday was approaching, so I asked Mar again to miss call that number to make sure it is in service and yes, it is in service so I’m convince that is Intan’s phone number. So I waited until her birthday to come to call her.
Okay, it was 0058 Malaysia time. I called her when it turns 0100, so in Bandung, it was 0000, 13 April 2008. I tried several time, but what I heard was, ‘Harap maaf, nomor yang anda dail salah’. Well, it’s quite tricky, so I tried several times, yet to no avail. After trying for a while, I decided to give up, this is the sign from above to stop it, it’s not worth it Udin. Then I slept, with heavy heart, but deep in the bottom of my heart I’m grateful because I think that was the moment, the turning point of my life, that I can live without thinking of her.
So, this is it. No more story about Intan after this, unless she appears back in my life. I won’t hunt her anymore, won’t try to plan any adventurous trip to Bandung anymore, and won’t tell this story to anyone anymore. Never
Thank you for spending your precious time on this crap. For your info, this entry took more than a month to be completed, and if you can feel, there are at least three moods in this entry. I started with excited, hopeful in the middle, and hopeless in the end. What do you think? Drop your precious comments please. Till we meet again!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
……………….i miss you love………………………….
……………….i miss you love………………………….
It is 5.30 in the morning and I’m still awake, still fresh. I couldn’t sleep. I just finished watching a semi-love drama and it is lovely. I felt happy after watching it, just for the couple of minutes before feeling sad until now. Why I’m sad? Well, I still can’t figure it out. Maybe because I’m quite lonely, jeez, don’t really like to admit it. But maybe I’m still saddened by the way she cheated on me. It’s painful, leave a big mark and I can’t forget it, even a bit.
How’s my life going out? Pretty busy, or should I say I make myself look busy so I don’t feel the way I feel right now that I don’t want to admit it. Hehe. Meet a couple of new friends, but my heart is still craving for more. There is still a big hole waiting to be filled. OMG, I don’t know what I’m writing write now. Udin, you sound so desperate, eooww!!!
Why oh why I try so hard to contact the people that used to shine my life but not around anymore? Err, they are not dead, but somehow, lose contact or should I say, I let them go before because of my STUPIDITY and EGO! Niera, Esther, Farah…. Just to name a few. I let them go away from me because at that moment, I never realise how much I need them, how priceless they are. How well and nice they treated me, but I never appreciate when they were around. Now they are gone, and I’m looking every single corner for them. How stupid was I, am I. I was so egoistic, so selfish. It is human nature, I always said this, ‘we always want what we can’t have, and never appreciate what we have at our disposal’. I always said this, but still can’t throw that bad habit away; after all, I am a human being right? Hehe. Lame excuse, Udin.
I miss her, d*mn miss her. Latest news about Intan, she messaged `Ulyani, her friend and mine about a month ago, with a new number of course, that’s her trademark. But unfortunately, this girl failed to reply to that SMS because she didn’t have enough credit. And when I got the number, that number can’t be contacted anymore. I’m so sad, because once again I lost track on her. Everyday, I wish that she will contact me. I pay serious attentions to unknown number that call or missed call me because I’m hoping that those calls or SMSes might be from her. I wish. My classmate played me once, she missed calls me a lot of time, and I was hoping that was Intan. And after I learned that those calls were from her, not from Intan, I was dejected. I even dreamt that those missed calls were from Intan, and when I awake, I checked my phone, and there was nothing. Come on Udin, get over her. It’s been 3 years since she left you, but you still hoping for her. You are a sore loser.
Still, I want to see her, my last attempt is to go to Bandung, where she study, meet her and talk to her in person. Hopefully I get what I want. Please pray for me, so I can go there and meet her, and talk to her. I miss you love……………………..
It is 5.30 in the morning and I’m still awake, still fresh. I couldn’t sleep. I just finished watching a semi-love drama and it is lovely. I felt happy after watching it, just for the couple of minutes before feeling sad until now. Why I’m sad? Well, I still can’t figure it out. Maybe because I’m quite lonely, jeez, don’t really like to admit it. But maybe I’m still saddened by the way she cheated on me. It’s painful, leave a big mark and I can’t forget it, even a bit.
How’s my life going out? Pretty busy, or should I say I make myself look busy so I don’t feel the way I feel right now that I don’t want to admit it. Hehe. Meet a couple of new friends, but my heart is still craving for more. There is still a big hole waiting to be filled. OMG, I don’t know what I’m writing write now. Udin, you sound so desperate, eooww!!!
Why oh why I try so hard to contact the people that used to shine my life but not around anymore? Err, they are not dead, but somehow, lose contact or should I say, I let them go before because of my STUPIDITY and EGO! Niera, Esther, Farah…. Just to name a few. I let them go away from me because at that moment, I never realise how much I need them, how priceless they are. How well and nice they treated me, but I never appreciate when they were around. Now they are gone, and I’m looking every single corner for them. How stupid was I, am I. I was so egoistic, so selfish. It is human nature, I always said this, ‘we always want what we can’t have, and never appreciate what we have at our disposal’. I always said this, but still can’t throw that bad habit away; after all, I am a human being right? Hehe. Lame excuse, Udin.
I miss her, d*mn miss her. Latest news about Intan, she messaged `Ulyani, her friend and mine about a month ago, with a new number of course, that’s her trademark. But unfortunately, this girl failed to reply to that SMS because she didn’t have enough credit. And when I got the number, that number can’t be contacted anymore. I’m so sad, because once again I lost track on her. Everyday, I wish that she will contact me. I pay serious attentions to unknown number that call or missed call me because I’m hoping that those calls or SMSes might be from her. I wish. My classmate played me once, she missed calls me a lot of time, and I was hoping that was Intan. And after I learned that those calls were from her, not from Intan, I was dejected. I even dreamt that those missed calls were from Intan, and when I awake, I checked my phone, and there was nothing. Come on Udin, get over her. It’s been 3 years since she left you, but you still hoping for her. You are a sore loser.
Still, I want to see her, my last attempt is to go to Bandung, where she study, meet her and talk to her in person. Hopefully I get what I want. Please pray for me, so I can go there and meet her, and talk to her. I miss you love……………………..
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Me Against My Blog(s)
Hi to all my avid reader (if I have any). December 2007 might be heading to its end, but I am very happy because I am very productive this month. I wrote 5 posts, all about my involvement in Collegiate Ambassador for Peace Leadership Camp in Klang, which was very great to me. I met new friends, new family, and new girls of course. During this festive season, I spend my time watching two great romantic movies, which resolves around Christmas, which are ‘Love Actually’ and ‘The Holiday’. Highly recommended for people in love, or still searching for love yet want to feel the lovey-dovey of love like me. Okay that is for the opening remarks lets go straight to the content. I want to tell you about my blogs. To date, I got 3 blogs, which are:
http://loveit-or-leaveit.blogs.friendster.com/avicenniera (Friendster’s Blog)
http://udinnstarr.blogspot.com/ (Blogspot)
http://udinnstarr.multiply.com/journal (Multiply’s Blog)
I started blogging date back on 2005. After my high school, I found myself sitting in my room, with nothing to do and I thought I got a lot of stories to share yet nobody want to hear because I was kind of loner and loser at that time. (Yazid still think I am who cares) I got myself messed up with a crush with my junior for about 4 years. And it’s been a roller coaster ride for me. So I decided to pen it down, not really, type it down should be more precise, about my story with her. I put it on my blog, which I already deleted yet I never tell anybody about that, so the story about her remains untold. Hehe. Anyway, it’s really not easy to open up your not-so-attractive life to outsider. But after a while, I found the guts to make it public and start blogging for public on Friendster’s blog. At first, I put two song lyrics and tell how that song somehow connects to me. Pretty awful right? Later on I started mumbling about something that comes to my mind. After my 6th post, only I received my first comment on my blog, from my best friend, K.A. Thank you so much my friend, without him my interest on blogging will die just like that.
Later on, I wrote about something bigger, more meaningful. I got the idea of tell-it-all about my stories involving me and Intan, my love interest. You see, when you have so many things to tell, yet nobody is around to share the pain, the best alternative is to express yourself by putting things into words, by writing. I wrote a trilogy of my so-called epic tragic love story about me and Intan that never have an ending. From those posts, I received numerous comments, advices, words of encouragement from my friends. From people that you never thought will spend their precious time to read my craps. It really makes me think that there are people out there that still care.
I attended a workshop about blogging conducted by renowned blogger in Penang. She advised to use proper English in blog so it will open up to the entire world. I used to write in with SMS language, so I decided to change. I used proper English in my blog. My blog looks pretty ‘skema’ but at the end of the day, I can see the benefit of it. My English improved, and I got 67/75 for my writing in MUET exam. Much better than getting B- in my Language Development paper, in the previous year. I also got the flow of writing, which comes only with a lot of writing. But still, my English is still far from perfect, so I will still keep on trying to improve. Feel free to correct me if I’m wrong.
I also go Gung-Ho on promoting my blogs. I love to read people’s blog, and I used to leave my blog address at the end of my comment on people’s blog. Sometimes I keep reminding my friends to read my blog. And sometimes I leave offline messages to my friends in Yahoo Messenger. Sound desperate, yet I really want more people to read my posts, especially the one that I mention in my blog. For example, my blog almost 50% of it talk about Intan, so I really want her to read, but it is still not the case until now. Hopefully she can read all those posts about her and understand how deep my feeling towards her is. Okay, enough about her, I guess.
So, I think that’s all. I want to take this opportunity to thank everybody that ever read my craps. Especially for those who always constantly check and leave comments. Trust me, those comments are seriously invaluable and I really appreciate it. Those comments spur me on to write more. So my deepest thank you goes to Werm, Kak Sabrina, CKB, Zira, Fun, Fikri & Zoul (they always have the chance to read before I publish it online), Joe, A’an, Hisham, Aisha, Vannesa, Marini, Dalwin, Wanie, K.A, Nana, Kak Hazera, and Ahlam (she is self-confessed my avid reader!) and for people that I might miss, sorry, and last but not least, to you that read this, please leave your comment after this. With all your support, I promise I won’t stop writing.
Till we meet again.
http://loveit-or-leaveit.blogs.friendster.com/avicenniera (Friendster’s Blog)
http://udinnstarr.blogspot.com/ (Blogspot)
http://udinnstarr.multiply.com/journal (Multiply’s Blog)
I started blogging date back on 2005. After my high school, I found myself sitting in my room, with nothing to do and I thought I got a lot of stories to share yet nobody want to hear because I was kind of loner and loser at that time. (Yazid still think I am who cares) I got myself messed up with a crush with my junior for about 4 years. And it’s been a roller coaster ride for me. So I decided to pen it down, not really, type it down should be more precise, about my story with her. I put it on my blog, which I already deleted yet I never tell anybody about that, so the story about her remains untold. Hehe. Anyway, it’s really not easy to open up your not-so-attractive life to outsider. But after a while, I found the guts to make it public and start blogging for public on Friendster’s blog. At first, I put two song lyrics and tell how that song somehow connects to me. Pretty awful right? Later on I started mumbling about something that comes to my mind. After my 6th post, only I received my first comment on my blog, from my best friend, K.A. Thank you so much my friend, without him my interest on blogging will die just like that.
Later on, I wrote about something bigger, more meaningful. I got the idea of tell-it-all about my stories involving me and Intan, my love interest. You see, when you have so many things to tell, yet nobody is around to share the pain, the best alternative is to express yourself by putting things into words, by writing. I wrote a trilogy of my so-called epic tragic love story about me and Intan that never have an ending. From those posts, I received numerous comments, advices, words of encouragement from my friends. From people that you never thought will spend their precious time to read my craps. It really makes me think that there are people out there that still care.
I attended a workshop about blogging conducted by renowned blogger in Penang. She advised to use proper English in blog so it will open up to the entire world. I used to write in with SMS language, so I decided to change. I used proper English in my blog. My blog looks pretty ‘skema’ but at the end of the day, I can see the benefit of it. My English improved, and I got 67/75 for my writing in MUET exam. Much better than getting B- in my Language Development paper, in the previous year. I also got the flow of writing, which comes only with a lot of writing. But still, my English is still far from perfect, so I will still keep on trying to improve. Feel free to correct me if I’m wrong.
I also go Gung-Ho on promoting my blogs. I love to read people’s blog, and I used to leave my blog address at the end of my comment on people’s blog. Sometimes I keep reminding my friends to read my blog. And sometimes I leave offline messages to my friends in Yahoo Messenger. Sound desperate, yet I really want more people to read my posts, especially the one that I mention in my blog. For example, my blog almost 50% of it talk about Intan, so I really want her to read, but it is still not the case until now. Hopefully she can read all those posts about her and understand how deep my feeling towards her is. Okay, enough about her, I guess.
So, I think that’s all. I want to take this opportunity to thank everybody that ever read my craps. Especially for those who always constantly check and leave comments. Trust me, those comments are seriously invaluable and I really appreciate it. Those comments spur me on to write more. So my deepest thank you goes to Werm, Kak Sabrina, CKB, Zira, Fun, Fikri & Zoul (they always have the chance to read before I publish it online), Joe, A’an, Hisham, Aisha, Vannesa, Marini, Dalwin, Wanie, K.A, Nana, Kak Hazera, and Ahlam (she is self-confessed my avid reader!) and for people that I might miss, sorry, and last but not least, to you that read this, please leave your comment after this. With all your support, I promise I won’t stop writing.
Till we meet again.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Collegiate Ambassador for Peace Leadership Workshop – Day Three
Today, according to the schedule, we will have a ‘Treasure Hunt’ activity. And we need to work in group. Okay, group again. The best part is two of the team members need to be disabled. One person need to be blinded and one person need to be crippled. Well, I volunteered to be the blind one. I did this once, and I know it wasn’t interesting at all to be the disadvantage person in the group. Another disable person in my group was Dhara. Anyway, the race has begun and we started it brightly.
To be honest, I really feel like I’m the bane in the group. They need to guide me where to walk, where to stay. And I can hardly participate in the hunt for clue or completing the task. All I did was stay there, where they asked me to stay and stoned there until we can make the move. Thanks for that also, I’m favourite with the mosquitoes as well. Thankfully Kak Liza came and put something on my skin, mosquitoes repellents I guess and keep the tiny little creatures away from me. Thanks also for CJ, Shaffian and Jegan who took good care of me when I was blind. I did not suffer any unwanted accident, but CJ fell when guiding me, he really living for the sake of others. Hehe. In the last checkpoint, I need to rescue Dhara while the rest of my group mate giving me instruction. At this point, I just totally rely on them so I can make it to the end. After that, team Turkey emerges as a winner. They won a hamper, yet they shared it with everybody. Thank you very much Turkey for Christmas. We really had fun during this activity and we bond a great relationship between us, in the group as well other group. We fought and compete with each others, yet in a very healthy way.
After that we were shown a video clip about a great leader in Japan who managed to rescue a lot of near bankrupts hotel. What I can see from him is he is an unorthodox leader. CEO without his/her own office? Unheard of yet he can manage his hotel with a bang. He instils great trust to his subordinate, he came out with a very effective strategies and put all his trust to his employee because he knows only them can improve the fortune of their hotel. I hope I can be like that because I’m still lacking the leadership quality in me but I’m working hard on improving it.
Another activity that day was we need to highlight the strengths we can see in our group mate. Well, I think I better list down what are my strengths that my group mate can see. 1) Talkative, 2) Willing to co-operate, 3) Willing to be open, 4) Open minded, 5) Good character of a leader, 6) Willing to change, 7) Rational and very practical views.
Thank you to my entire group mate. I was really flattered yet proud when they said that. Especially the last one who came from the person who was not in my group, yet she (oops, did I just said she?) can see my strengths from outside. I appreciate that, really. Also thanks for Udesh and Kak Liza for their comments on us.
Later that evening, we had another exciting activity, ‘Unity Volleyball’. I thought we were suppose to play usual volleyball, 6 a side. But after being introduce with the rules of the game, I just blown away with exciting. We need to complete the task, 5 level overall. Most of the group managed to reach level 5. During this activity, I think the most important thing is teamwork. Without teamwork, we will fall at the first hurdle and won’t finish it. We also need to learn to trust our group mate, that they can do it. What a joyful afternoon, but really tiring. I almost was running out of gas.
Night activity started a little bit late, and we don’t have enough time to prepare and practice the sketch that we were supposed to perform. And we need to stick to the situation as well, so I can say that I was not given enough chance to be creative, or maybe I was tired. Our performance was pretty dull, same goes to the other groups; maybe we were very tired after all. The best actor goes to Acai, I do agree because he actually acts everywhere and anytime. So the gong goes to him.
After that, Mike explained about the activity that we were about to have this morning, night tracking. Everybody was quite worried but excited. The best part was somebody besides me very worried because she doesn’t have long socks. So I promised to her that I will borrow my unused socks so it will protect her from unwanted leeches. So let us see, what can my socks do to protect her from leeches. Till we meet again.
To be honest, I really feel like I’m the bane in the group. They need to guide me where to walk, where to stay. And I can hardly participate in the hunt for clue or completing the task. All I did was stay there, where they asked me to stay and stoned there until we can make the move. Thanks for that also, I’m favourite with the mosquitoes as well. Thankfully Kak Liza came and put something on my skin, mosquitoes repellents I guess and keep the tiny little creatures away from me. Thanks also for CJ, Shaffian and Jegan who took good care of me when I was blind. I did not suffer any unwanted accident, but CJ fell when guiding me, he really living for the sake of others. Hehe. In the last checkpoint, I need to rescue Dhara while the rest of my group mate giving me instruction. At this point, I just totally rely on them so I can make it to the end. After that, team Turkey emerges as a winner. They won a hamper, yet they shared it with everybody. Thank you very much Turkey for Christmas. We really had fun during this activity and we bond a great relationship between us, in the group as well other group. We fought and compete with each others, yet in a very healthy way.
After that we were shown a video clip about a great leader in Japan who managed to rescue a lot of near bankrupts hotel. What I can see from him is he is an unorthodox leader. CEO without his/her own office? Unheard of yet he can manage his hotel with a bang. He instils great trust to his subordinate, he came out with a very effective strategies and put all his trust to his employee because he knows only them can improve the fortune of their hotel. I hope I can be like that because I’m still lacking the leadership quality in me but I’m working hard on improving it.
Another activity that day was we need to highlight the strengths we can see in our group mate. Well, I think I better list down what are my strengths that my group mate can see. 1) Talkative, 2) Willing to co-operate, 3) Willing to be open, 4) Open minded, 5) Good character of a leader, 6) Willing to change, 7) Rational and very practical views.
Thank you to my entire group mate. I was really flattered yet proud when they said that. Especially the last one who came from the person who was not in my group, yet she (oops, did I just said she?) can see my strengths from outside. I appreciate that, really. Also thanks for Udesh and Kak Liza for their comments on us.
Later that evening, we had another exciting activity, ‘Unity Volleyball’. I thought we were suppose to play usual volleyball, 6 a side. But after being introduce with the rules of the game, I just blown away with exciting. We need to complete the task, 5 level overall. Most of the group managed to reach level 5. During this activity, I think the most important thing is teamwork. Without teamwork, we will fall at the first hurdle and won’t finish it. We also need to learn to trust our group mate, that they can do it. What a joyful afternoon, but really tiring. I almost was running out of gas.
Night activity started a little bit late, and we don’t have enough time to prepare and practice the sketch that we were supposed to perform. And we need to stick to the situation as well, so I can say that I was not given enough chance to be creative, or maybe I was tired. Our performance was pretty dull, same goes to the other groups; maybe we were very tired after all. The best actor goes to Acai, I do agree because he actually acts everywhere and anytime. So the gong goes to him.
After that, Mike explained about the activity that we were about to have this morning, night tracking. Everybody was quite worried but excited. The best part was somebody besides me very worried because she doesn’t have long socks. So I promised to her that I will borrow my unused socks so it will protect her from unwanted leeches. So let us see, what can my socks do to protect her from leeches. Till we meet again.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Welcome Remark
Welcome to my new blog. Not really new anyway because I already started blogging for quite sometimes, but only in Friendster and I think only my friends can access it. So now I used this domain so others also can join in and read it. But the previous posts are from my friendster blog, so you won’t miss the interesting parts of my life. But still I will update both and some posts are mean to be here but not there, vice versa. So, you better check both! Thank you and welcome to my blog. Please drop a comment or two so I know who read. Really appreciate your time, thank you.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
The Reincarnation Of Me
Hello my friends out there, it’s been a while since my last post. I am really really busy or should I say, lost the drive to write. I prefer to fill my spare times watching movies or playing games, or the best damn thing is to sleep. But after a while, I need to get back to writing my blog. This is still the best way to get myself heard.
Moving on, as you know or you may don’t know, my status now is single. Yes, SINGLE. It’s official that we broke up on 4 November 2007, a day before my examination start. The reason of this should I say that we are not meant for each other. There were some problems occurred and I feel that the best thing to do was to part ways. It was not an easy decision to take but I have to for the sake of the future of her and me. I regretted on how things turn up for us, but this might be the best for us. I’m particularly very sad but I get over it already, hopefully she can get over it as well. I don’t want to blame her on what’s happening between us because it was not entirely her fault. So Murni, if you read this, I want to apologize for all my wrongdoings, my weaknesses and everything. I never capable fulfill your needs, even though I already gave my best. Maybe trying my best is not enough for you. But I do enjoy our time together and I miss your companionship. Thanks for the memories, Murni.
Being single is not that bad, I used to live like this for almost the entire part of my life. I get used to it. But the saddest thing is my phone is not ringing anymore. I often misplace it, and found it the next day. No messages no missed call, nothing. I almost forget what tune I put as my ring tone. Apart from that, I think I am doing okay. And the best part is; now I can join the ‘Single Club’ again. Lead by ‘Bachelor Of The Century’, Fatheque and his vice-leader Yazid, I am just too proud to join the bandwagon. Good luck guys!!!
By being in my condition, I cant help reminiscing the past. When I am alone, I often draw to think about my past. My relationship with other girls before this mostly turns into the drain. One night when I was alone at home with nothing to do, I opened my file where I keep all the stuff that I received before this such as notes, cards, sketches and other things. Mostly from the Iera, my love interest in high school. Many notes and beautiful sketches I received from her. We were so young at the moment, but it was nice memories to have and to keep, for the rest of my life. Intan too, I still keep the cards and the gift that she gave me on my 17th birthday. And I still have the gift that she supposed to receive on her 18th birthday but she refused to. I will keep it until I can give her what is hers. Maybe on her 21st birthday? If I could travel to Bandung, then I would meet her again, after remarkably 4 years of missing her
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everybody that supports me through this bad patch of my life. Zul, Fikri, Yazid, Fath, Farid, Ilyana, Ila, Izzatie, Salsabila, Fazlina, Ulyani, Marini, Anis Huda, Aisha, Izan, Anis, Hanisah, Dalwin, Ainnul, Sharifah and everybody that I might forget to mention. It’s been a great help and don’t worry, Udin is back and kickin’!!!
Moving on, as you know or you may don’t know, my status now is single. Yes, SINGLE. It’s official that we broke up on 4 November 2007, a day before my examination start. The reason of this should I say that we are not meant for each other. There were some problems occurred and I feel that the best thing to do was to part ways. It was not an easy decision to take but I have to for the sake of the future of her and me. I regretted on how things turn up for us, but this might be the best for us. I’m particularly very sad but I get over it already, hopefully she can get over it as well. I don’t want to blame her on what’s happening between us because it was not entirely her fault. So Murni, if you read this, I want to apologize for all my wrongdoings, my weaknesses and everything. I never capable fulfill your needs, even though I already gave my best. Maybe trying my best is not enough for you. But I do enjoy our time together and I miss your companionship. Thanks for the memories, Murni.
Being single is not that bad, I used to live like this for almost the entire part of my life. I get used to it. But the saddest thing is my phone is not ringing anymore. I often misplace it, and found it the next day. No messages no missed call, nothing. I almost forget what tune I put as my ring tone. Apart from that, I think I am doing okay. And the best part is; now I can join the ‘Single Club’ again. Lead by ‘Bachelor Of The Century’, Fatheque and his vice-leader Yazid, I am just too proud to join the bandwagon. Good luck guys!!!
By being in my condition, I cant help reminiscing the past. When I am alone, I often draw to think about my past. My relationship with other girls before this mostly turns into the drain. One night when I was alone at home with nothing to do, I opened my file where I keep all the stuff that I received before this such as notes, cards, sketches and other things. Mostly from the Iera, my love interest in high school. Many notes and beautiful sketches I received from her. We were so young at the moment, but it was nice memories to have and to keep, for the rest of my life. Intan too, I still keep the cards and the gift that she gave me on my 17th birthday. And I still have the gift that she supposed to receive on her 18th birthday but she refused to. I will keep it until I can give her what is hers. Maybe on her 21st birthday? If I could travel to Bandung, then I would meet her again, after remarkably 4 years of missing her
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everybody that supports me through this bad patch of my life. Zul, Fikri, Yazid, Fath, Farid, Ilyana, Ila, Izzatie, Salsabila, Fazlina, Ulyani, Marini, Anis Huda, Aisha, Izan, Anis, Hanisah, Dalwin, Ainnul, Sharifah and everybody that I might forget to mention. It’s been a great help and don’t worry, Udin is back and kickin’!!!
THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES…………. (Part I)
(In Conjunction with My 20th Birthday)
Ah-ha, I’m back. Sitting on my not so comfy chair and facing my computer, writing this crap. Actually, I’m planning to finish my FSP assignment tonight, but somehow, I can’t focus on my task because nobody is doing anything related to academic tonight, because it is weekend. But the more concrete reason will be my heart and mind is not really up to it. There is a feeling that I can’t describe, creeping in my heart. So I better do other thing to ease it off.
That is for introduction, actually I haven’t write anything for quite sometimes, sorry for everybody who might wait for my latest post. Actually, I’m pretty busy right now, trying to cope with degree level of education. Apart from that, my life is great, really great. Recently, I was appointed as Collegiate Ambassador for Peace (CAP) for IPGM KPPP and successfully handle the CAP Leadership Workshop in my college. Thanks for everybody that involved. It was a pleasure to work with you all. My love life is going pretty well. We are going to the right direction. We even plan to meet our respective parents during this Hari Raya and take our relationship to another level. Hopefully we will go all the way to walk down the aisle together, InsyaALLAH. Pray for us okay. The sad thing is we rarely meet each other now, because I’m d*mn busy. I don’t mean to neglect her, but I hope she understands my situation. I gave her a call just know and sang a song ‘Bisa Bertahan’ by Sheila on 7.
So, back to our title there, as I promise in my previous post, I will dedicate this entry to people out there who gave me such a wonderful memories that I will remember for the rest of my life. Even though some of it ended up in sour notes, but I still want to appreciate their contribution in flourishing my messy life. I will use their real names, so if you are on the list and somehow not happy with this exposure, feel free to contact me and I will take appropriate action. I will go with the timeline okay, start from my high school year until now, enjoy!
Zahiera (Iera)
She is my first crush, I started falling for her in 2001, when I was in Form 2 and she is a year younger than me. I liked her so much, kind of obsession because I was so happy just to see her but I don’t have any guts to talk to her or try to let her know my feelings. It was until when I was in Form 4 I got her e-mail and start sending mail to her. We became friend, I didn’t clearly tell her I like her, but she knew it somehow. But she treated me well as a friend and I was okay with that. I talked to her for the one and only time 3 days before the school closed for holiday and I was going to sit my SPM, such a loser. After the school days, we contacted each other regularly, and when she was in Matriculation, we became close. I asked her again if she was ready to take our relationship to the new level, but she was not ready for me, and I was okay with that. We still were a good friend. But sadly, this year, during her 19th birthday on 21st July, I forgot to wish her Happy Birthday because I was very busy working as a volunteer. She sent me a message and told me her dismay. I sent her various SMSes and VoiceSMS, but she didn’t want to hear my explanation. That’s the end of our friendship I guess. We never contact each others after that.
To Iera, if you read this, I want to apologize for all my wrongdoings. I started to bug you since you were in Form 1, I made you feel uncomfortable. But you still treated me very well, you accept me as what I am, not as people judge me. You made me feels happy, feels the sense of belonging. You are very friendly, very kind. You gave me the new lease of life, you gave me hope. I still kept everything you ever gave to me, all the notes, all the drawing, all the memories. Thanks for the memories, Iera.
Munirah (Niera)
I knew her in 2003, on mIRC, at first, we just chatted casually. But after a while, I found that she was so attractive. Easy going, made me laugh and happy all the time. We got a long very well. Then we started SMS-ing each others. We even hit about 50 SMSes a day. I really regard her as my best friend ever, she was there every time I needed her, and she will always be there to hear my problem, to ease my trouble mind, to give her advice and to cheer me up. Until one point I felt really comfortable with her and started to think I might be falling for her. But I kept the feelings away, because I don’t want to lose a very great friend in case she didn’t feel the same way. The problem started when I fell for another girl, Intan. I was over the moon with her and started to neglect Niera. I hardly contacted her because at the moment, I felt that Intan was very important that I don’t need anybody else in my life. I knew Niera was hurt by me, but she never showed it and said she is happy as long as I am happy. When my relationship with Intan was not going according to plan, I went back to Niera. I was selfish at the moment, never knew how girls will feel if treated that way. But she was happy to help me, always be there when I needed her. But one day, she told me that she is in a relationship, at first I was happy for her. But after a while, I felt jealousy started to creep in. I felt that she had abandoned me because she has a boyfriend. Stupid me, I was so selfish at the moment. I demanded her to always replying my message, treated me as we were before. But definitely she can’t because at the moment, she has her main priority, which is her boyfriend. Then one day, my stupidity reached to the max, I told her if we were going like that, I don’t need her anymore because she can’t be like before. I told her that we better go separate ways. She said fine. Then we stop contacting each others. Until now, I still feel that was the most stupid decision I ever made and to lose her is the big loss for me. I tried to contact her after I realized that I have made the stupid decision. But she forgives me but never forget on what I have done to our friendship. I never heard anything from her until now.
To Niera, I know I was wrong; I was stupid to break our friendship. Until now, I still regard you as my best friend ever. I still want you back as my friend. Whatever happens, I will always happy to welcome you back in my life. If you read this, once again I ask forgiveness from you and Happy Belated Birthday to you Niera. You really taught me how friendship means a lot to me. Thanks for everything, thanks for the memories, Niera.
Intan (In)
Okay, I will go easy this time. I wrote a hell lot about her already in my blog. Last year, during this time and with conjunction with my 19th birthday, I wrote a trilogy if I can say that about me and her. It is really complete and tells everything about what happens between me and her. And after that I also wrote pieces about her, so I don’t think I need to write it hear. You can check on my previous post entitled ‘The Complete Story of Udin and Intan’ part I, II and III. But briefly I will state here that she is the most complicated girl I ever met in my life. She took me to the cloud nine in the 1st 6 month we knew each other and put me in a disastrous doldrums after that for nearly two and a half years. But I must admit here that I really cherished the moment when we were together. I don’t know what really when wrong with us.
To Intan, I know you still remember me and what you have done to me, but I don’t hate you, can’t hate you actually. I smile every time our memory together flash out in my mind, but I’m damn sad to learn that you left me just like that, not once, not twice but thrice. But if you read this, you know that I still want you, no matter in what circumstances. In, thanks for all the sweet memories when we were together, thanks for the unbearable pain you have inflicted, thanks for the memories, In.
Okay folks, I think I shall stop here, because it is too long for you all to read. Just wait for part II because there is more to come. I still have a long list to go and I want you all to stay with me. Please drop your comments after reading this, it’s actually helps me a lot on my next entry. Thanks for reading this. Thank you so much.
Ah-ha, I’m back. Sitting on my not so comfy chair and facing my computer, writing this crap. Actually, I’m planning to finish my FSP assignment tonight, but somehow, I can’t focus on my task because nobody is doing anything related to academic tonight, because it is weekend. But the more concrete reason will be my heart and mind is not really up to it. There is a feeling that I can’t describe, creeping in my heart. So I better do other thing to ease it off.
That is for introduction, actually I haven’t write anything for quite sometimes, sorry for everybody who might wait for my latest post. Actually, I’m pretty busy right now, trying to cope with degree level of education. Apart from that, my life is great, really great. Recently, I was appointed as Collegiate Ambassador for Peace (CAP) for IPGM KPPP and successfully handle the CAP Leadership Workshop in my college. Thanks for everybody that involved. It was a pleasure to work with you all. My love life is going pretty well. We are going to the right direction. We even plan to meet our respective parents during this Hari Raya and take our relationship to another level. Hopefully we will go all the way to walk down the aisle together, InsyaALLAH. Pray for us okay. The sad thing is we rarely meet each other now, because I’m d*mn busy. I don’t mean to neglect her, but I hope she understands my situation. I gave her a call just know and sang a song ‘Bisa Bertahan’ by Sheila on 7.
So, back to our title there, as I promise in my previous post, I will dedicate this entry to people out there who gave me such a wonderful memories that I will remember for the rest of my life. Even though some of it ended up in sour notes, but I still want to appreciate their contribution in flourishing my messy life. I will use their real names, so if you are on the list and somehow not happy with this exposure, feel free to contact me and I will take appropriate action. I will go with the timeline okay, start from my high school year until now, enjoy!
Zahiera (Iera)
She is my first crush, I started falling for her in 2001, when I was in Form 2 and she is a year younger than me. I liked her so much, kind of obsession because I was so happy just to see her but I don’t have any guts to talk to her or try to let her know my feelings. It was until when I was in Form 4 I got her e-mail and start sending mail to her. We became friend, I didn’t clearly tell her I like her, but she knew it somehow. But she treated me well as a friend and I was okay with that. I talked to her for the one and only time 3 days before the school closed for holiday and I was going to sit my SPM, such a loser. After the school days, we contacted each other regularly, and when she was in Matriculation, we became close. I asked her again if she was ready to take our relationship to the new level, but she was not ready for me, and I was okay with that. We still were a good friend. But sadly, this year, during her 19th birthday on 21st July, I forgot to wish her Happy Birthday because I was very busy working as a volunteer. She sent me a message and told me her dismay. I sent her various SMSes and VoiceSMS, but she didn’t want to hear my explanation. That’s the end of our friendship I guess. We never contact each others after that.
To Iera, if you read this, I want to apologize for all my wrongdoings. I started to bug you since you were in Form 1, I made you feel uncomfortable. But you still treated me very well, you accept me as what I am, not as people judge me. You made me feels happy, feels the sense of belonging. You are very friendly, very kind. You gave me the new lease of life, you gave me hope. I still kept everything you ever gave to me, all the notes, all the drawing, all the memories. Thanks for the memories, Iera.
Munirah (Niera)
I knew her in 2003, on mIRC, at first, we just chatted casually. But after a while, I found that she was so attractive. Easy going, made me laugh and happy all the time. We got a long very well. Then we started SMS-ing each others. We even hit about 50 SMSes a day. I really regard her as my best friend ever, she was there every time I needed her, and she will always be there to hear my problem, to ease my trouble mind, to give her advice and to cheer me up. Until one point I felt really comfortable with her and started to think I might be falling for her. But I kept the feelings away, because I don’t want to lose a very great friend in case she didn’t feel the same way. The problem started when I fell for another girl, Intan. I was over the moon with her and started to neglect Niera. I hardly contacted her because at the moment, I felt that Intan was very important that I don’t need anybody else in my life. I knew Niera was hurt by me, but she never showed it and said she is happy as long as I am happy. When my relationship with Intan was not going according to plan, I went back to Niera. I was selfish at the moment, never knew how girls will feel if treated that way. But she was happy to help me, always be there when I needed her. But one day, she told me that she is in a relationship, at first I was happy for her. But after a while, I felt jealousy started to creep in. I felt that she had abandoned me because she has a boyfriend. Stupid me, I was so selfish at the moment. I demanded her to always replying my message, treated me as we were before. But definitely she can’t because at the moment, she has her main priority, which is her boyfriend. Then one day, my stupidity reached to the max, I told her if we were going like that, I don’t need her anymore because she can’t be like before. I told her that we better go separate ways. She said fine. Then we stop contacting each others. Until now, I still feel that was the most stupid decision I ever made and to lose her is the big loss for me. I tried to contact her after I realized that I have made the stupid decision. But she forgives me but never forget on what I have done to our friendship. I never heard anything from her until now.
To Niera, I know I was wrong; I was stupid to break our friendship. Until now, I still regard you as my best friend ever. I still want you back as my friend. Whatever happens, I will always happy to welcome you back in my life. If you read this, once again I ask forgiveness from you and Happy Belated Birthday to you Niera. You really taught me how friendship means a lot to me. Thanks for everything, thanks for the memories, Niera.
Intan (In)
Okay, I will go easy this time. I wrote a hell lot about her already in my blog. Last year, during this time and with conjunction with my 19th birthday, I wrote a trilogy if I can say that about me and her. It is really complete and tells everything about what happens between me and her. And after that I also wrote pieces about her, so I don’t think I need to write it hear. You can check on my previous post entitled ‘The Complete Story of Udin and Intan’ part I, II and III. But briefly I will state here that she is the most complicated girl I ever met in my life. She took me to the cloud nine in the 1st 6 month we knew each other and put me in a disastrous doldrums after that for nearly two and a half years. But I must admit here that I really cherished the moment when we were together. I don’t know what really when wrong with us.
To Intan, I know you still remember me and what you have done to me, but I don’t hate you, can’t hate you actually. I smile every time our memory together flash out in my mind, but I’m damn sad to learn that you left me just like that, not once, not twice but thrice. But if you read this, you know that I still want you, no matter in what circumstances. In, thanks for all the sweet memories when we were together, thanks for the unbearable pain you have inflicted, thanks for the memories, In.
Okay folks, I think I shall stop here, because it is too long for you all to read. Just wait for part II because there is more to come. I still have a long list to go and I want you all to stay with me. Please drop your comments after reading this, it’s actually helps me a lot on my next entry. Thanks for reading this. Thank you so much.
From Heaven To Hell
Hi everybody, now I’m back in IPP after one week stint of orientation in Kolej Bukit Kachi, Universiti Utara Malaysia. I really don’t feel like going before I went there because I know it is very meaningless, go there for a meaningless orientation and then head back to IPP for my 1st year degree programme of my B.Ed TEYL. After a week there, I know I was wrong to feel like that. My stay there was very fun, far more fun than I expected.
The very obvious reason why my fellow friends and I were enjoying our stay there is because 850 female new students surrounded us, 49 boys in total. The ratio is almost 1 boy and 17 girls. It was a heaven for us, to be the centre of attraction in the hall. I might sound silly but that was how I feel when we started our first programme in the hall. There were so many beautiful girls that surely make me drool over and over again. The hostel is so nice, the toilet is far cleaner, and the rest room is air-conditioned, the television has Astro decoder. But that is university standard, and I feel lucky to have the chance to be part of it, albeit we only will enjoy it to the fullest next year.
We took Bukit Kachi by storm because we were very matured compared to the other new students. Even almost all new students are 20 years old, but most of them are from STPM, fresh from school while we already spent 2 years in college. We quickly adapt and managed to shine and make our voices heard. We rise to the occasion and gained a lot of respects from facilitator and fellow new students. We are also very special because our course is very odd and one of a kind in UUM.
I feel sad to leave there, even though on Thursday we feel very relief to hear that we will leave UUM on Friday morning. But when the times come to leave, I feel very sad; maybe I feel that way because I will leave the 800 +/- girls behind. Hehe. I will wait patiently until July 2008 comes and I will go there to finish my 3rd, 4th, 5th and 6th semester in UUM. 2 years there should be enough for me to enjoy my university life. It will be much more different from college life, I guess.
So what about the title? I’m sorry, I might be over exaggerate but that is how I feel when I first step my foot in my new room in IPP. From a wonderful hostel in UUM, now they throw us in one of the worse hostel in IPP. They threw us to Amra to make way for new students that will register soon. We were very comfortable in Gajus before, but Amra is really terrible. The toilet in Amra is very similar to the one I saw in documentary about World War II refugee’s camp. My bed is counting down the days to collapse (and if you put an 80 kg grown up man, like me, the days will come sooner than later). But what can we do, we are only students in IPP, college and university is very different. All we can do is study hard, and wait patiently for another two semester in IPP before we can move to UUM. It won’t be soon before long.
The very obvious reason why my fellow friends and I were enjoying our stay there is because 850 female new students surrounded us, 49 boys in total. The ratio is almost 1 boy and 17 girls. It was a heaven for us, to be the centre of attraction in the hall. I might sound silly but that was how I feel when we started our first programme in the hall. There were so many beautiful girls that surely make me drool over and over again. The hostel is so nice, the toilet is far cleaner, and the rest room is air-conditioned, the television has Astro decoder. But that is university standard, and I feel lucky to have the chance to be part of it, albeit we only will enjoy it to the fullest next year.
We took Bukit Kachi by storm because we were very matured compared to the other new students. Even almost all new students are 20 years old, but most of them are from STPM, fresh from school while we already spent 2 years in college. We quickly adapt and managed to shine and make our voices heard. We rise to the occasion and gained a lot of respects from facilitator and fellow new students. We are also very special because our course is very odd and one of a kind in UUM.
I feel sad to leave there, even though on Thursday we feel very relief to hear that we will leave UUM on Friday morning. But when the times come to leave, I feel very sad; maybe I feel that way because I will leave the 800 +/- girls behind. Hehe. I will wait patiently until July 2008 comes and I will go there to finish my 3rd, 4th, 5th and 6th semester in UUM. 2 years there should be enough for me to enjoy my university life. It will be much more different from college life, I guess.
So what about the title? I’m sorry, I might be over exaggerate but that is how I feel when I first step my foot in my new room in IPP. From a wonderful hostel in UUM, now they throw us in one of the worse hostel in IPP. They threw us to Amra to make way for new students that will register soon. We were very comfortable in Gajus before, but Amra is really terrible. The toilet in Amra is very similar to the one I saw in documentary about World War II refugee’s camp. My bed is counting down the days to collapse (and if you put an 80 kg grown up man, like me, the days will come sooner than later). But what can we do, we are only students in IPP, college and university is very different. All we can do is study hard, and wait patiently for another two semester in IPP before we can move to UUM. It won’t be soon before long.
The Angel, The Demon and The Cow…
Hello everybody out there. First and foremost I would like to apologize to all my avid reader (if I have any) because of lack of update on my blog. It’s been more than a month since my last post and I truly regret it. It is mainly because I am particularly very busy (or very lazy indeed) and I don’t have anything really interesting to share. My epic (!) story involving Intan is drawing to its close. I might write it later, maybe in conjunction with my 20TH birthday come this September, I already have in mind what I want to write and the title for it will be ‘Thanks For The Memories’, so if you want to know more, wait until September.
Actually, I really don’t have anything to write, I’m just damn bored and don’t know what to do. And I also realize that my honeymoon holiday is nearly over and I will start studying in less than 2 weeks time. So I better do some writing or else my frozen mind won’t be ready in times. I will be heading to UUM by the end of this month to further my study. However, we will be there only for a week before heading back to Penang where we will complete our 1st year degree there. I don’t know what of purpose going there, but I’m really looking forward for it. In one-week time, I am looking to increase my phonebook entry, hehe. So that is my goal there, haha.
Actually I have just finish surfing the web, specifically Friendster Ô where I took a look at Intan’s photos for the uncountable times. I don’t know why I still want to do that even though I am not particularly needs her around anymore. I have someone that I really love and really love me in return, no doubt about it. But I still can’t get her out of my mind, yet. It is kind of crazy but my memories toward her are immortal. Her name, her face, her smile, her laugh manages to creep in my mind every single time I breathe. I’m sorry my dear Murni, if you read this, you will surely burst into tears, but you need to know my brain condition right now. Hopefully you will help me ease the memories of me and Intan and we can make our own unforgettable memories, together and forever.
Apart from my still unstable mind, recently I think I almost manage to get a couple to split up. It is not my intention though, and I am not proud of it. In fact, I really regret that I get involve in that incident. The story is, a couple is in the midst of break up, so, I as friend of one half of the couple, decided to jump in and help them to resolve their problem. But I made a slight mistake that cause their relationship to get worse! I still don’t know the final outcome, as both of them are having crucial examination at the moment, so perhaps I can get clearer picture on their relationship after this. Now, I am praying that they can put aside their differences and get together again. Will write more if I can get their permission after this.
So that’s all folk. Forgive me if it is lousy and not interesting. If you read this piece of crap, don’t forget to leave your comment about anything, such as content, flow of writing or even grammar so I can improve myself in the future. How about the title? Actually it has nothing to do with the content, I just put it for fun. Thank you for wasting your time on this. Thank you!!!
Actually, I really don’t have anything to write, I’m just damn bored and don’t know what to do. And I also realize that my honeymoon holiday is nearly over and I will start studying in less than 2 weeks time. So I better do some writing or else my frozen mind won’t be ready in times. I will be heading to UUM by the end of this month to further my study. However, we will be there only for a week before heading back to Penang where we will complete our 1st year degree there. I don’t know what of purpose going there, but I’m really looking forward for it. In one-week time, I am looking to increase my phonebook entry, hehe. So that is my goal there, haha.
Actually I have just finish surfing the web, specifically Friendster Ô where I took a look at Intan’s photos for the uncountable times. I don’t know why I still want to do that even though I am not particularly needs her around anymore. I have someone that I really love and really love me in return, no doubt about it. But I still can’t get her out of my mind, yet. It is kind of crazy but my memories toward her are immortal. Her name, her face, her smile, her laugh manages to creep in my mind every single time I breathe. I’m sorry my dear Murni, if you read this, you will surely burst into tears, but you need to know my brain condition right now. Hopefully you will help me ease the memories of me and Intan and we can make our own unforgettable memories, together and forever.
Apart from my still unstable mind, recently I think I almost manage to get a couple to split up. It is not my intention though, and I am not proud of it. In fact, I really regret that I get involve in that incident. The story is, a couple is in the midst of break up, so, I as friend of one half of the couple, decided to jump in and help them to resolve their problem. But I made a slight mistake that cause their relationship to get worse! I still don’t know the final outcome, as both of them are having crucial examination at the moment, so perhaps I can get clearer picture on their relationship after this. Now, I am praying that they can put aside their differences and get together again. Will write more if I can get their permission after this.
So that’s all folk. Forgive me if it is lousy and not interesting. If you read this piece of crap, don’t forget to leave your comment about anything, such as content, flow of writing or even grammar so I can improve myself in the future. How about the title? Actually it has nothing to do with the content, I just put it for fun. Thank you for wasting your time on this. Thank you!!!
Happy Birthday Intan!!!
Today is 13th of April, and I want to take the opportunity to wish Intan, happy 20th birthday! I feel joyful because this time around I have managed to call her and wish her happy birthday at 0015, Bandung time. She was sleeping, but it was okay, even it was quite hard to reach her.
On the same day last year, I was totally dejected because it was the first anniversary of me being turned down by her. And I couldn’t wish her happy birthday because at that time she was successfully hid from me and I can’t contact her at all. It is completely a different scenario this year and I’m very grateful for that.
As you all know, on her birthday 2 years ago, I planned a surprised birthday celebration for her, but to my dismay, she turned me down and refuse to come out. I was really sad and it remarks the crack on our relationship. And for your information, I still keep the present and the birthday card that supposed to be presented to her on that day. But it was the things in the past, now I’m already recovered from that, and we are in the midst of repairing the broken relationship. Lets hope we will be okay and can be good friend as the good old days.
And for you Intan, if you read this, I want to wish you a very happy 20th birthday, may this will bring you success in your life. Sadly I didn’t buy you anything, yet, because you are just too far from me, hopefully one day we will meet and I will get you something. I really hope to see you in flesh because the last time we met was in December 2003 and we planned to meet after our SPM but everything doesn’t go to plan. This time around I hope we can meet, even our status is not single anymore.
That’s all folk, thank for your time reading this piece of craps. Please leave your comment, I really appreciate it and will encourage me to write more.
Thank you.
On the same day last year, I was totally dejected because it was the first anniversary of me being turned down by her. And I couldn’t wish her happy birthday because at that time she was successfully hid from me and I can’t contact her at all. It is completely a different scenario this year and I’m very grateful for that.
As you all know, on her birthday 2 years ago, I planned a surprised birthday celebration for her, but to my dismay, she turned me down and refuse to come out. I was really sad and it remarks the crack on our relationship. And for your information, I still keep the present and the birthday card that supposed to be presented to her on that day. But it was the things in the past, now I’m already recovered from that, and we are in the midst of repairing the broken relationship. Lets hope we will be okay and can be good friend as the good old days.
And for you Intan, if you read this, I want to wish you a very happy 20th birthday, may this will bring you success in your life. Sadly I didn’t buy you anything, yet, because you are just too far from me, hopefully one day we will meet and I will get you something. I really hope to see you in flesh because the last time we met was in December 2003 and we planned to meet after our SPM but everything doesn’t go to plan. This time around I hope we can meet, even our status is not single anymore.
That’s all folk, thank for your time reading this piece of craps. Please leave your comment, I really appreciate it and will encourage me to write more.
Thank you.
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